finally.. the last day.

there's just been so much going on the past few days..and i've been dying to blog actually. after monday, on tuesday we had dinner with nathan, darrell, bryce, shelle, taleisha and wayne at country town something place. lol. and then on wednesday we went to badminton with wayne, darrell and nathan at pcyc at nerang and nathan played badminton for the first time. thurs night was the only night we had to pack, and tonight we're going bowling. and then there were all those cards to complete, and i've been making something on my own for wayne, and lorna as well. so i've been sleeping like 3+ every day..and waking up at 7. one night i nearly slept at 4.

the past few days at work have been extremely emotional for me. for the past 2 days, whenever i thought of how this would be my last few days working in the lab and all that..i just felt so sad i wanted to cry. most of my tears were for tracey and wayne, the people i've just worked so closely with in these 4 months. we gave ruth her card on wed cause she only works tues and wed..and when she hugged us, and said i may nv get to see u again, take care and all the best, i nearly started crying. so i was like oh crap. i'm going to die on friday. die crying my eyes out. that night, wayne sent us home. i just wanted to ask him..if any students cried on their last day. i didn't want to be the only student ever to cry like crap on their last day. and i couldn't even bring myself to ask him that in the car. i went.."did any student...." and i couldn't continue. but wayne guessed the question..he asked..is your question..."did any student bawl their eyes out on the last day?" and i nodded. and he went.."the answer is yes. it's because these 4 months being at work, they've just built these bonds.. and friendships and they definitely feel very sad when they have to leave." when i heard that..i just started crying. cos i felt that when i heard it it was so true...

yesterday.. we were in the lab..and wayne just started teasing me and saying that if i take his car on the last day..he will start playing "leaving on a jetplane" in the car..and then that made me feel really sad and got me all started up again that i had to walk out of the room into the other part of the lab..and then when i came back i sat back down and he was like..even i've got tears in my eyes. and i just felt like even wayne felt really sad that we were going to leave. the whole of thurs..i was just trying to hold myself back and not cry so fast..even though there were so many times i was just gonna cry.

and today..finally..was our last day. we gave out cards and chocolates to everyone..i decided to start with people in the warehouse and the production and the reception and all first..a few times, when i gave stuff to nicole, and renee, and lorna, i was nearly gonna cry..but i held myself back. i decided to save the lab for the last, because i knew that i would definitely cry when i gave tracey and wayne their presents. we even had a little fun spraying each other with the distilled water bottle, and then wayne put a whole heap of cold water used to cool down samples down my back and i went back and got him, tracey held open the back of his jeans and i poured water down the back lol..

at 3.30..tracey had to go home..we took fotos with her first (Cos i knew i would look really ugly after that) and then when we gave her the presents.. i just started crying. i really couldn't stop. and wayne was just sitting down there and watching me cry..and tracey hadn't even realized it yet. and then she looked up and she saw me looking like a mess..and then she was like awwww.. and i just felt so sad that there wouldn't be any more days where we'd do crazy things and fun things and have lots of laughs together..and she gave zj a hug and then gave me a huge hug. n i couldn't stop crying and then uncle johan came in and then he saw me crying and he gave me a hug too and he said to them 'now she's making me cry too' and said that i was one of the best students they'd had..and i think uncle johan teared up as well.then after that uncle benji came in and did the same..and then at 4pm auntie eileen came in and said goodbye to us, and then she saw me crying and she gave me a hug too. after that.. i was in the lab..doing the nestle P-test while wayne was just sitting there reading our reports..and i just went up to him and asked...'will i be missed?' and wayne just looked up and replied 'you don't even have to ask that question. of course you will be missed. heaps and heaps and heaps and heaps and heaps and he said so many 'heaps' that i lost count. and after that..renee called us out to the reception, and she gave us this huge huge envelope, and when we took out the envelope there was this HUGE thank you card, and we opened the card, it was full of messages that people had written for us. and it was just so touching to see that, that both me and zj just totaly started crying buckets. in front of the card. and renee hugged us and kept asking us not to cry cause she was gonna cry too, and said that she'll really miss us loads...and that she'll miss all the jokes we've had together and how she'd always trick me by saying that sheena wants me in her office. (gary told us after that that it was the first time students had ever gotten such a big card and that so many people had written in it)

and clarence came down and shook our hands and even gave us a mini hug. and after that..i went back to the lab..and i don't really remember what happened, but wayne was standing next to me and saying.. something along the lines of ..i'll definitely miss you guys. especially you. and then after that he just went and gave me a big hug and i just started crying buckets again. and he was saying all these things that just went past my head and it was probably along those lines of 'i'll really miss the fun we had and that kind of thing'. and i was like crying to him and saying that there'll be no one to play practical jokes on me anymore once i have left this place (and zomg i'm still crying now as i write this.) and what wayne said to me as he hugged me really touched me and is really stuck in my mind. he said to me "you're a beautiful person amelia" and i just felt so glad that he thought that way of me, that i'd been one of the students that he'd really really gotten close to. he said that if he were to send me off at the airport, both he and i would be messes.. and that i'd nearly got him started crying a few times that day. like he'd teared up and all too. wayne said that he might send me off at the airport tho, since i was leaving alone. he even joked that he'll fail me so that i have to come back for another 4 months.

after that chari came in, and saw me crying, and she started crying as well, and of cos it was hugs galore again. Eng came in, the whole cycle repeated. I think i actually managed to get alot of people to tear up because of my incessant crying today. and then when annita went home we gave her our hand-sewn pouch and she'd told us 'of all the students i've met and worked with, you guys are the best! you guys are just so sweet etc etc.' lorna told me too that after that when she saw me crying thru the sample window, she teared up as well, and she looked really sad that we were going to leave..and i gave her a big hug too at the bowling bar.

i'd just cried a thousand and one times today..that i was so drained. after that, i went home, and when aunt suvy talked to us and gave us a hug, both me and zhujun started crying. it's just that these 4 months, we've felt so welcome in their house, so well taken care of, they'd just treated us like their own daughters. and they've always been so wonderfully nice to us. that we just felt really touched by everything.

and i guess, it's a good thing to cry, and even have everyone feel so sad to see you go. it's just shown that during this period of time, you've made friendships that were worthwhile, bonds that were strong, people that you truly loved and cared for times that were happy and fun and that it just simply hurt to part. i really really don't wish to leave, there's too many good things and nice people and quality time that i'm leaving behind.

i will truly truly miss all these wonderful people in PFI.