the longest day ever

it's funny how when you are in a situation that you think really sucks, time drags and goes on like forever and ever.

anw this blog is to blog about my memories during my 4.5 mth attachment in Aust. it's only my first day and there i am thinking 'omg...4.5 months more....'

perha

ps it is only today.. the feeling of alone-ness set in the moment i entered the departure hall all alone. I guess i'm not one to be suited to be travelling alone. no one to share my fears with, my joys, my excitement. when there's no one to share it with u, any positive feelings just dwindle away, and are replaced by fear and sian-ness and all the negative feelings.

or maybe it's always like that. on my first day in US, i felt crappy too. i still remember that live journal post i made. my sinus is back to haunt me.

but then again, there are many things to give thanks for.. for the safe flight here, that i was on the right flight, that i got thru customs and immigration etc fine, that the guy that sat next to me on the flight was a nice guy..that i managed to find my way to take the train..that Mr Perkins is a nice guy.. that I got to this house and sorta settled in safe and sound. physical needs all taken care of, and that's something to thank God for.

perhaps aust will be a time to train me spiritually and mentally. it already is starting to seem so tough.